The lost me..

I have been trying to come up with something good or even thoughtful of who i am but have ended up deleting everything. It has come a time I realize me as an individual and not managed by rules and regulations of the extended family.

Of late, I have been in a crisis of some sort. I hope it will go away and return the normal me back to life. My life is all about receiving news from many about them being in a financial crisis that I should pull them from. The fact that I work for an 'abnormal profit' making organization does not make me rich. I struggle in life just like any other hard-up individual; living from pocket to mouth. The moment all will come to realize that I am not a money making machine, I will celebrate out loud.

I have always given out thinking that at some point all will stop. This is not happening soon. The fact that I can be accused of not giving a helping hand to a needful family member, yet I am not informed of the situation, not forgetting that I have never met this needing person in my life, except for family tales,has made me make a resolve: I have my own problems and will not be embroiled in other peoples (family) schemes, unless I am the sole beneficiary. If this will make me be isolated from the others, let it be. I will make friends who are not there to siphon everything I have in the name of family. I believe this will greatly bless my efforts as I will reap from my non-giving approach.

All those who think a person always has money to bail them out of their troubles will never be part of my new me;
If anyone thinks I have come this far so as to finance them, get another person who will listen to you;
I wasted my time in school so that I could enjoy life at some point in life; if you think this was to benefit you because you are family, look somewhere else;
If this makes you hate me, go to hell!